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Sunday, December 10, 2017

August Ames

  On the morning of December 5th 2017 August Ames, born as Mercedes Grabowski on August 23 1994, was found dead in her home. She was a Canadian-American pornstar, and from everything I have see she looked to be a rising star.

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  How did this happen? How can a beautiful adult star die so young? She took her own life. Suicide by hanging.

  Shortly before her death she was in the middle of a very heated battle on twitter. She was defending her own body and her own choices.


  It all started because she simply refused to work with a "crossover".


  But why did she refuse? The best way I can explain it is with this article: "HIV in the straight porn industry, the role of crossover stars"

  It was her body and it was her choice of who she worked with, she had every right to refuse just for the safety of her health.

  Although it is common for performers to refuse to work with "crossover" performers, her post had such a backlash many were attacking her for her personal choices. Including a fellow performer, Jaxton Wheeler, who on the morning she was found dead had tweeted to her:

Jaxton, I do not care if you did not intend to push her over the edge or influence her decision, it doesn't matter what you meant. You said some very harsh things, you are guilty, without a doubt, whether you were upset or not. Your words costs a life, you being upset does not matter now. You can't bring her back or change things. You now have to live with the fact you assisted her suicide along with many others who bullied her. 

  August Ames, should not have been treated so negatively for her choices about her body and who she lets in it. She should not have been bullied. Especially by a ton of low life cunts on Twitter! This was NEVER a subject about homophobia, it was the subject of a woman who refuses to fuck someone who she does not know if he has been recently tested. This was about health and safety in the work place. So all the people who wanted to turn this in to a homophobic topic can take seat, I have something to say, because look at what YOU did? You attacked and bullied someone over something else, over something so stupid that you can not even comprehend what you are arguing about. 



  These tweets along with many more happened over just a couple of short days before August made her last and final tweet to the internet and people who was taking part in bashing her over her choices. This was her final tweet before being found dead less than 24 hours after.


  Even though she cared about her health and concerned about her sexual wellness the care or concern was not great enough to defeat all the shaming she received, which resulted in her taking her own life. 

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  Twitter bullying, online bullying, slut shaming, all of it needs to STOP. Who are YOU to judge a girl who makes a living for herself, even if it uses her body. I see this terrible shit all the time. Camgirls and performers being bullied and treated harshly for our choices. I've seen BBW girls get fat shamed, I've seen black girls get mistreated just because of their skin color.
But people also do not realize it is also the black girls fucking gorgeous skin that glows exotically causing men to be speechless, and its the BBW confidence that out shines even the sun that has men drooling. Just because someone is not something everyone wants doesn't mean they should be treated like trash. So fuck all of the people who want to bully and degrade us just because we ARE on the internet. We are not on the internet for you to humiliate, if you want to humiliate us at least do it in a professional (since humiliation is a fetish) manner, contact us before hand to discuss the humiliation in a nice normal way before hand, then pay us for wasting our time and making us feel bad when we could be dealing with people who make us feel good.

  Women, men, anyone on the internet is not your's to judge or mistreat as you feel. The internet is still a community, be nice to your community. Hate, shaming and bullying does not belong anywhere in this world, so please stop bullying!


  Stop hiding behind your keyboards, stop shaming women for what they do. In fact, stop shaming PEOPLE. Stop bullying. Remember the saying, if you have nothing nice to say don't say anything at all? Well, people need to live by it and if they choose to live just to bash people then maybe they are the ones who should invest in a cyanide pill, sooner than later before they cause other innocent souls to come to an end far too soon.

  And to those who don't stoop so low to bully others to make yourself feel better:
  You are wonderful, thank you for not being harsh in this cruel world, please continue to be a beautiful person. I love you, we all do, for not being those negatives in our lives, thank you. 




 If I find out another beautiful performer/model/entertainer in the adult industry is being shamed for their choices I will (virtually, not in real life) hunt the bully down myself and make them suffer for the pain they inflected on others. So with that said, ladies & gents if you are ever being shammed or bullied, please let me know. I will gladly help, it's better than seeing another young soul take their own life. 

August Ames, I do hope some light will come from your demise. Whether those responsible are held accountable or to hopefully prevent something like this happening from someone else. I'm sorry you were treated so badly. Maybe where ever you are now you are experiencing a world without hate. May you rest in peace. 

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 I hope, in some way, this blog makes a point to at least one person to please stop bulling, please stop shaming. If all else let this blog be a reminder of a beautiful woman who took her life way too early all because some people did not agree with her refusing to sleep with someone. (how is that right in the first place to bully someone for NOT sleeping with some one???)

#RIPAugust

Kiss Kiss Meow!


More articles regarding August Ames:http://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/august-ames-dead-brother-cyberbullying-cost-sisters-life-a8101816.htmlhttps://www.xbiz.com/news/232280/kink-com-issues-statement-on-passing-of-august-ameshttps://www.thesun.co.uk/news/5102786/tragic-porn-star-august-ames-left-suicide-note-apologising-to-parents/https://jezebel.com/after-being-cyberbullied-adult-film-star-august-ames-w-1821148084http://www.newsweek.com/august-ames-jaxton-wheeler-cyanide-pill-742267http://www.mercurynews.com/2017/12/08/porn-star-august-ames-kills-herself-after-twitter-uproar/http://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/august-ames-dead-porn-actress-suicide-body-adult-films-actor-a8096496.htmlhttp://www.nydailynews.com/entertainment/porn-star-august-ames-dead-23-article-1.3681554
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Monday, November 20, 2017

Christmas (Requested)

I was asked daily for the longest time by someone to put something like this out so any wishlist or anything is easy to get to in one spot for Christmas... Lets just hope he isn't wasting my time. I know I have 1 or 2 wonderful people who will probably send me a gift (and I will gift them in return of course) but I honestly don't expect a whole lot.

Side note, if you want to see me unbox something for Christmas on video (it will be a free vid) feel free to send me a gift!

Here is (hopefully) all of the info needed to send gifts. I'm not picky at all so I am really easy to please. A gift card to King Soopers is even nice lol.

Where to send:
Kitty Moon
PO Box 616
Englewood, CO
80151

For digital gifts like Google Wallet or Amazon GC:
KittyMoon.Meow@gmail.com

To send money:
GRock.me/MissKittyMoon
Cash.me/$KittyMoon
(ABSOLUTELY No Venmo or PayPal)


WISHLISTS

[Amazon]
Fund Me - Content Items
Adult Toys
Sexy Things To Wear
Home, Health, & Beauty
Photography Gear
Treats I Can Have
Nerdy Stuffs
Spoil My Fur Babies!!!

Yandy.com - Feed My Lingerie Fetish!

Crystal Delights - Butt Stuffs

Lola Shoetique - because I have no shoes... size 10

Secrets In Lace - Stockings



GIFT CARDS

Bad Dragon - Because I love fantasies too

Hot Topic - I like their accessories & underwear lol

Yandy.com - Seriously, feed my lingerie fetish!

Kitten's Playpen - Pet Play Gear

Victoria's Secret - Because I never shop there

Target

Best Buy

Joann - Got to get supplies some how

Exotic Nutrition - Got to spoil my babies too


SPECIFIC ITEMS

iPod touch (blue) with "Imagine" engraved

Bookshelf - I kind of need 2..


I'm really open to anything. :)

Hope this gets someone off my back and they really are sending me a gift ;) lol

Kiss Kiss Meow!
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Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Small Update Aka Stressed Out

I've been sick again. Getting over it still. Been in and out of the doctor's office this past week, different meds, different tests, its been hell. Despite all that I have been working on new content. (Thank god I look normal on the outside #InvisibleDisease #FuckMyLifeImUsingHashtagsInMyBlogToBeSarcasticKillMeLOL) I'm just not sure if that is slowing my recovery. I have to keep at it. I have to make money.

Money is tight. With my truck having a blow head gasket still, high ass rent prices, storage in my home town, many other bills, and a ton of doctor's expenses. Money has been very tight. And it sucks. It's not helping with my stress that's for sure.

I've been pretty depressed lately. Just because all I can really do is make content to try to make money or lay in bed because of how miserable I physically feel from everything going on with my health. Not to mention bad news from back home. Things aren't going very well with my family. My aunt has been in the hospital and had surgery. That's the most I'm going to say.

I need to make a trip there to see my mom and aunt, and hopefully empty out the storage unit I have there. I'm tired of paying monthly on that unit. They keep raising the prices on me too. I can't afford that unit anymore but I have many valuable belongings in there.

I'm busting my ass making content as it is, but I have been racking my brain trying to figure out how I can make more money a bit faster. I've thought about camming, but really after trying to cam many times in the past I really really really don't want to cam. And I don't know if I have the energy to cam and still make content.

And it's not like I have someone who can help me out. Even the doctor I saw recommended I stay with someone for the time being because of the state of my health. I need to lessen my burdens. Easier said than done. I have extremely high rent because of the city I am in. I refuse to leave. I love it here. I've tried living elsewhere in country. Can't help it once I've returned for the 3rd time. I am more me here. I am happier here.

I am just very very financially stressed. I have no one to help relieve that stress. I barely even have anyone to have a face to face conversation about how I feel. This blog is the best I got. I really have no one. I don't even really have a shoulder to cry on. The people I do know IRL, I don't think they care enough about me to hear me out.

I always get treated pretty shitty when I try to talk about how I feel, emotionally and physically. I'm used to people not caring. I just hate when everyone expects me to care when they don't. People are selfish. I wish I grew up to be selfish. I wish I was more of a bitch. Even recently I had someone, whom I thought was a friend, fuck me over.

You really don't see people's true colors until they are walking all over you...

I have someone else who just keeps trying to kind of pressure me into things I don't really want to do for extra work, but financially I might, because I really need the money. I just feel like if I do what I am pressured to do then I am letting myself down and basically disrespecting myself for going against what I feel is right.  But... Money... I really need it. 

I wish somehow a ton of money fell from the sky so I could just pay my bills and rent for a few months in advance so I can not stress as much and focus more on fun awesome content, not focus on what things can I do to make money... And how much respect for myself will I loose in the process. 

I can't really go to a strip club, I am far from physically capable to do anything like that. I already push myself really freaking hard as it is. Normal jobs are still a no-go simply because my health is too unpredictable so I have never ever held down a job in my life since the health stuff started getting bad when I was 14. I've worked but never lasted.

Here I am on my own during a very tough battle with my health, no transportation, living alone, self-employed, zero help from the government, no way to even go to or from junk yards to do my parts work, and treated like shit by those who said they were their for me or are my friend.

Friends don't treat friends like shit. Friends don't make up stupid ass excuses just to get what they want. Friends return favors. Friends don't abuse friend's trust. Friends don't take friends for granted.

Here I am, a loner. With only the internet to console me. With only people I know on the internet to listen (I mean read) to what I have to say (type) but even then I still withhold so much of the crappy details of my shitty  life.

I am very thankful to have my internet buddies. They do mean a lot to me. They are sweet and caring, not to mention very supportive. They make me feel like I'm a normal girl, even just for a little while. I wouldn't be anywhere without them. I just wish everyone was like that in real life, not just those I know online.

I really wish money was not such an issue... Why is it so hard to live normally when your health is not normal? I guess for now I will just keep at what I am doing now and hope that one day luck will find its way to me.

Kiss kiss meow!


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Wednesday, August 2, 2017

Taking a (very) short break


TL;DR? Summery: Literally, just a few days. I will be online, but not filming.
My body needs rest. I should be back to filming this weekend


So the past few weeks I have been going hard. Non-stop. With my truck being down, repairing it, and trying to get my ManyVids to take off more. It's really wearing me out. I tweaked my shoulder again, so it is really hurting me right now. I need to give it and myself a break before I break myself.

Also with how many videos I have been producing lately I have really let my room become a mess. I do have plenty of videos to upload for weeks, really. If I stick to my Wed & Sat upload schedule I can probably last about two months without running out of videos.

Anyways, back to the room I film it. So it's a big mess. You can't tell because everything stays behind the camera. Seriously... I finally got some organization stuff so I want to get in there to go through everything to make it as organized as can be. I can not tell you how hard it is to find the right stockings when I have so many! Same for panties and everything else. I even keep miss placing my toys. Over the next few days I will be (carefully, as too not strain my shoulder any more) organizing the film room.

I can not stop doing everything since I still have bills to pay so I will still be doing my IRL work. There is so much I have to do, like try to get stuff together for my truck so I can drive again or yard work because I rent so I can not let the yard go un-managed for too long. It's just I won't be filming for a few days, It will not be for too long. Ill rest from today to the 5th or 6th, then on the 5th or 6th I will film some. Then around the 8th to the 14th I will not be filming for other reasons. Then back to filming often after that.

While I'm taking those days off I will be online. I will also be spending some time prepping for the videos I will be producing soon. I have many items I need to gather for a few ideas so I need to get them for finishing touches. I do have a wishlist for items I need to go towards certain videos. Even though some of the uses for each item is kept secret so every one can have good surprises when the content comes out. If you wish to contribute to help support the production of my videos and help me gather the items I need quicker you can check out the wishlist by clicking here.
**Any contributors WILL receive unboxing/first use content made with the item or have the option to receive the content that is planned to be made with that item when the content has been made (could be a little while for some content).**

Again, I will STILL upload videos to my ManyVids regularly on Wednesdays & Saturdays, so make sure to check back often. I will also try to spend more time blogging here... Keep an eye out on the MV Blog for one of my blogs! And the MV Gear contest. I will post the contest on my twitter as soon as its active.

Follow me on twitter for the quickest updates on when I will be filming. Because if I feel like filming Ill tweet that I'm about to film like usual. I'll be on twitter as well.
Follow me: @_KittyMoon

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Tuesday, August 1, 2017

The one deity you should worship

de·i·ty/ˈdēədē,ˈdāədē/
noun
noun: deity; plural noun: deities
   a god or goddess (in a polytheistic religion). "a deity of ancient Greece"   synonyms: god, goddess, divine being, supreme being, divinity, immortal;
  • divine status, quality, or nature. "a ruler driven by delusions of deity"
  • the creator and supreme being (in a monotheistic religion such as Christianity). noun: Deity; noun: the Deity
  • a representation of a god or goddess, such as a statue or carving.

Before I get into detail I want to give a disclaimer. I am not telling you or others to drop their religion/spiritual beliefs to worship another. I am simply telling you one deity you CAN worship while still practicing your current religion/spiritual beliefs.

Hopefully you may have read my last blog "On the shore of the ocean of beliefs", otherwise this might not make a whole lot of sense. I will be referring back to the previous blog often so make sure to check it out if you get a bit lost.

So as I talked about before there are people out there who use religion and spiritual beliefs as a way to get attention. Some will convert and pray to a god in hopes the god will bless them with the notoriety and prosperity they seek. Some use religions and spiritualities as an aesthetic on social media to gain followers. Some will often change beliefs regularly just for the trending aspect of those beliefs. 

All to receive attention and some sort of fame from others instead of working hard to earn it themselves. That's not how it works. Religion is not meant for those purposes. If you want your fame your not going to get it by publicly posting about you religion. You can practice the religion or spirituality that you feel is right in your heart for you while giving attention to the deity I am about to tell you about. You can do both, and you could possibly attain that fame you seek.

There is a deity that you can worship that will allow you to achieve your dreams, goals, and even popularity if that is what you seek. This deity is beyond powerful, more powerful than any other out there. The deity is neither evil or good, it is literally how YOU perceive the deity to be. This deity is rarely spoken about as a god/goddess. It is such an ignored deity that is should be a crime how much people don't pay it any mind. The deity I speak of is absolutely amazing, very unique. This deity is truly 1 in 7.5B people, that's how unique. 

Who am I talking about you ask? Is it that unimportant that you don't even know where I'm going with this? Or do you know who I am talking about but just reading to see how this pans out? I can't give you the exact name of the deity, but I can say one thing. 

The deity is one's self... You. Are. Your. Own. Deity.... As I am my own deity. It's not a sin in any religion to believe in yourself (if it is considered a sin in one religion then that's just terrible) as well as the god(s)/goddess(es) you believe in, worship, and follow. Have you ever once seen yourself as a being with divine nature? Do you never look at yourself and go "I am amazing. I can do anything."? Or even during something you feel is impossible do think to yourself "If I can just get past this one thing then I will be happy.", and you get past that one thing... Have you ever realized you created your own blessings, miracles, answers to prayers, and luck? 

Even when I was in church so long ago I was taught that the Christian "god" will never give you a task you can not handle and that he doesn't always intervene. If that's the case how did all those good things happen to you after such low points in your life? Because you made it happen. Not a god. Not anyone else. YOU. You are your own deity, you are your own creator of your future.

If you wake up one day, put on your favorite clothes with confidence, and you carry that confidence with you no matter what, others will perceive you as an amazing confident person surrounded with positivity. If you wake up one day, pissed the fuck off at the world everyone will feel that anger then get frustrated for no reason and you would only create more negativity in and for yourself.

If you tell yourself you can do anything, 99% of the time you can do anything. Almost like 'The Little Engine That Could' with the "I think I can, I think I can..." then next thing you know, you can and are doing what you set your mind too. 

The key is, not to be arrogant about it. Others will try to convince people they are the best in the world. It's not about that. It's about making your dreams come true. It is also about remembering everyone else is their own deity as well, so you can't force people to leave their personal deity behind to worship you. That is more or less abuse of your divine status. And just flat out wrong. If you see yourself as a god or goddess respect your other human gods and goddesses, do not get arrogant or egotistical.

As for me, it was not until recently I truly discovered this. Since I have started to respect myself and to care or worship myself more I have noticed a MAJOR change in my life. I have so much more confidence. I can look at myself in the mirror now and think "damn, I look good." Not only do I have confidence, I also have more happiness and peace. I'm achieving more of my goals. I'm completing projects I've wanted to do for months. I am very happy with my work while still growing to learn more. 

I have put myself, my likes, and my desires first, so much so now anything feels possible. It felt impossible trying to compare or compete with others, or to even try to follow other peoples demands. I 'worship' myself and I can feel the power in me to take on anything. I even have more people approach me online and IRL just because I "have a ethereal glow surrounding me" from what one person said to me. 

I've carried this positivity around with me for a few weeks and I can not explain the many small bursts of luck I have attained with this positivity. From being gifted free books at a book store, to free and big discounts on vintage clothing from a boutique I will now forever go to. I even found two wallets in one day (I returned one since I saw the person near by and I am about to mail the other one since they have not contacted me through a found ad I posted.)

You really do create your luck. You do not have to broadcast who you worship or believe for likes when you can just be more confident in yourself and stay true to yourself. People love and feed off of confidence. Be yourself, praise yourself, pray to yourself, worship yourself, love yourself and others will follow. Do not try to be like everyone else. Stop trying so hard to follow trends to get noticed. Be yourself and people will probably start to crawl to you. 

Lol I know I have a few 'followers/fans/friends' who enjoy me for being myself and not trying to be like the others, and I am so thankful for them that often times I feel I owe them, so often times I do spoil them a little bit. (You can be spoiled too if you checked out my ManyVids for FREE vids, make sure to leave reviews for more treats... yes I know this is a shameless self-plug but hey, I make my own future, does not mean I cant promote myself lol) Even though most people in the sex work/adult industry demand you spoil them, it's not just about someone getting off to content. It's also about the people who follow you for who you are as well. So even if you and them see you as a god/goddess it does not mean you can take advantage.

Don't be cocky and arrogant. Stay humble, but remember you are the creator of your future.

(Photo of me by me in 2016, please ask before use)

Maybe my next blog will be about how I "worship" myself and how you can worship yourself too be the best deity for yourself that you can be. "Before you turn the camera on" does include some of the tips. Just remember, you don't always have to do a gods work, but you can do your own work and make something out of yourself and future.

Kiss kiss meow!

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